Fear is not my Portion

By Stella Sandra

Sermon: Waiting on my Miracle(Holly Furtick)

It’s an honor to be able to write something in the “my favorite sermons” blog. Thank you Resty for the thought, it means so much. May God bless you and increase you.

I chose this sermon as my favorite because of the revelation it brought into my life. I went through a long season of envy and frustration. I wished for a family that lived in unity and shared in love. I wanted it so bad but others had it and I didn’t. Seeing other people’s happy families made me wish I had what they had, it was like I was missing out on so much. It was so hard to watch them enjoy what I longed for.

You see, my father has always been a pillar in our family and a provider to our extended family. Many years back, he got a stroke and couldn’t work anymore, but God sustained us through that season. I bless the Lord, for him and the continuous healing.

However, years later, my life intensified between 2015 and 2017. Since my father couldn’t provide for others as he did in the past, we found ourselves living in a season of fear and uncertainty. This was because many thought that he wouldn’t make it. The enemy used them to threaten us, intimidate us, torment us, and partition for his property. They went as far as humiliating my parents. It was a rough time for my family.

Our human efforts to involve the law enforcers for protection were in vain until God came through for us and it is then that we realized that this was not a physical battle that man could handle but a spiritual one. We made a decision to let God take the wheel. There is satisfaction when you let God drive you through situations, you may need a change now but his timing is super perfect. Guys, God came through for us, I bless the Lord for his protection, we conquered! We prayed, fasted and God connected us to people of faith, and some who had gone through the same course. We need community in our lives, but they have to be the right people.

Listening to pastor Holly’s message made me realize how much I related to the character Jairus. See, he had to stand by and see someone else receive a miracle that could have been his, had Jesus not been interrupted. My family and I felt like we had done enough. I mean my father has been so generous so we deserved better but that’s not how life is. God does not do things like that. He puts us in certain situations so we can know that He is Lord! So, when Holly said that your miracle is on the way, you want what you want but something better and bigger is coming. I thought to myself, this is it! I knew right then that God was teaching us something in this season.

You see, before this whole situation, we weren’t a prayerful family. We never took God seriously. But during the trials, God placed the right people in our way and we found ourselves praying, fasting, and doing things we had never done. This season taught us who God was. He brought into our lives, people who had encountered the same problems as we were going through and we learned how to trust Him!

Mark 5:36 says, “don’t be afraid just believe.” Holy emphasizes that one can either focus on fear or on the one who is always with us, Jesus. Despite Jairus’s fears, he kept in close contact with God, he waited, and in the end, God brought the daughter back to life even after her death. Psalms 21 tells me that because my help comes from the Lord, it doesn’t matter if it is a betrayer, God has been in all schools, we just need to be close to him in all aspects, and there lies our miracle.

I am personally still praying for the total healing and restoration of my father’s health but I am grateful for God’s grace throughout the years.

Let us stay close to God no matter how dark it gets, God is with us. Moreover, we find Grace and mercy in our time of need.

God bless you.

Here is the link to the sermon